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You are your whole body at once: a little story about consciousness
I bet you that you can't use your finger and point at all the things in your body and tell me what they are for.
The only thing you have is some vague text book knowledge: here are my kidneys and here are my lungs. But you dont know how it actually works, from minute to minute.
Therefore, there is consciousness.
But before we start, I have to take a step back to the Bible. No worries, this isn't about convincing you or whatever.
No, in the Bible, they already figured this out. They already knew, just like me, what consiousness is.
The trick is in the first lines of text, the ones that survived for generations (that means a lot).
(motion goes up (heaven) and down (earth) points up and down, this is me
translated (this is my body), your body explaining to you
Imagine if you received all the information at once: how your heart beats, how your kidneys drip, that your foot itches, and that the neighbor is sawing nearby.
That would be very inconvenient: if you couldn’t filter the relevance of all the information your body gives you, you wouldn’t be able to follow a conversation.
This is why consciousness exists. Consciousness helps you bring relevance to the information. This means you choose what you find important and focus on that.
So, there is always a part of your body that becomes invisible while you're doing something else. Right now, you’re reading, but your kidneys are still quietly working. In fact, the rest of your body intentionally doesn’t bother you, so you can decide what’s important to you.
People who are skilled with consciousness can perceive many things in their body at the same time. I’m reading right now, but secretly, I’m talking to my right foot – it’s almost asleep. And secretly, I also hear a strange noise coming from my stomach. A sound I haven’t heard before.
People who are good at consciousness often secretly pay attention to (usually small, but more big things than you might think) those who aren’t yet skilled in consciousness and still need to learn to understand their bodies. Many legends are about this: Moses, who could surf on his brainwaves, Jesus turning water into wine (or maybe that’s about a specific part of the body, who knows), or Adam and Eve, who ate something that is now often called an ‘Adam’s apple’ (do you know which body part that refers to?). And of course, there’s Buddha who... didn’t get much further than (‘something with big energy’). The poor man sat under a tree talking to himself. At least he did his best.
Why this is useful to know
If you’re someone who is deeply interested in one thing (commonly referred to as autistic in everyday language), it might be that your body becomes a little unbalanced. If you spend hours and hours on one hobby, you may forget about the rest of your body. No worries, just take some time to watch TV.
If you’re someone who finds all new things interesting (nowadays referred to as ADHD/ADD in everyday language), you do the opposite. You give a little bit of attention to everything, all at once.
In reality, these two things are superpowers.
It only becomes dangerous when you try to forget a part of your body. For example, because you’ve experienced something terrible. You’re essentially trying to push away a thought or feeling, which is a small part of your body. And that’s when consciousness becomes a real nuisance. It will still try to find ways to let you know what’s going on. For example, by bothering you with extra nightmares. Or by giving you a panic attack during the day.
It can also happen that you’ve been through something intense, and after surgery, you wake up feeling suddenly afraid. That’s because consciousness – your body, that is – wants to explain to you what happened. You don’t need to be afraid of that.
Make no mistake: most adults are extremely bad at things related to consciousness
There are people who think we are just our brains. That’s not very smart: you can control your own brain from the outside (try it). And we can see in each other that the brain is just a part of your body, but you also still have feet.
Yes, the brain is a real trickster: it secretly makes itself as important as possible. Don’t always take it too seriously!
If You Push Away Feelings, Your Psychologist Won’t See It
You can’t see how someone inhabits their body. So if someone suppresses their feelings and isn’t fully in touch with their entire body, you might end up treating something that doesn’t actually exist.
It’s therefore extremely important to first check if people are truly feeling their whole body and how they relate to it.
Without that, you have no idea what might really be going on.
Sweat, Physical Labor: Your Body
You are your whole body,
Absolutely not just your brain.
And your body makes that clear to you, while keeping a modest distance,
Because it doesn’t interfere with your sexual development.
That’s how amazing this works.
The inside of my body feels like leather—like a man, like labor, like whiskey and sweat.
The better you become at this, the more you only care about how you feel, not how you look. You walk the streets forgetting your appearance.
That's how consciousness works in practice. It only works in practice. This isn't textbook science. We aren't book wizards. I can feel the inside of my own body now, and it tastes like old leather.
Our Brains Function Perfectly, and So Do Our Bodies – We Just Don’t Understand the Measurements
Imagine I’m depressed. Depression is like a drop in my head or a small part of the brain that isn’t functioning well.
Something ‘small,’ literally, in comparison to my entire body.
What causes depression? Big things. Lack of social connection. Meaningful work. Things that affect the whole body.
When we start measuring things in the body, we find errors. The measurement is accurate: this part of the brain isn’t working, these neurotransmitters aren’t functioning properly.
Now imagine our bodies are working perfectly. At least our brains. That would mean the signal from the brain is correct, the measurement is correct, but we’re still depressed. Because it makes sense that we’re depressed. We lack social interaction. We don’t move enough. Do you see the difference? This changes how you view your body.
Instead of thinking you’re sick, that you have a brain disease, your body is actually functioning 100% perfectly. It’s just not enjoyable. But that doesn’t mean you’re sick.
The frustrating part? Neuroscientists do indeed detect an error in your brain. But that doesn’t mean something is wrong.
Why This Is So Incredibly Important
The outcome is the same.
The difference is that on one side, you think, "I’m sick, so I can’t," while on the other side, you think, "My body works perfectly". In other words: your starting position changes.
This is similar to dealing with pain in sports. Some people might think, "I can’t do it," while others think, "It only hurts now because I’m just starting, it’ll get better." The pain signals are the same, but your response is different.
This is why it’s so important to change how we look at depression.
Instead of seeing it as a defect in the body, it’s an accurate description of what’s going on.
Just because you can measure something like greed doesn’t mean you can’t change it.
The measurement is accurate. You can see that someone is greedy. You can probably even measure greed in certain parts of the brain.
But that doesn’t mean much, because you can change the output.
So the measurement is accurate, even perfect, but not very relevant. It doesn’t mean that someone is like that because their brain works that way.
You can suppress your emotions when you’re young, for example, if you learn to do so from a strict father. As a result, your brain changes. You might become a psychopath because you can no longer feel the pain of others. You no longer feel empathy, so you become cold, a psychopath.
But you can reverse this. How do I know? I’ve done it myself.
Consciousness is knowing everything that goes on in your body.
The World is Not Round
We are just as convinced today that the world is round as people once were when they believed it was flat. But I don't think the world is perfectly round. I think it’s almost round—more like this: it has mountains, valleys, rivers, and uneven surfaces. Of course, it’s a compressed energy state, shaped by the way we observe it. Since we perceive the world with our eyes, it appears round to us.
I also want to discuss psychiatric diagnoses like ADHD, autism, and psychosis. These are just temporary labels we assign to living beings. You shouldn’t do that—it’s deeply wrong and dangerously misleading. Over time, many of the things we take as facts today will seem absurd in hindsight, almost like a crime against understanding.
These two paragraphs are connected. That's what the brain does.
I have a pill that can remove all your negative thoughts. For just 1 cent, it’s yours.
Flies away.
"You would never use it."
Language Boxes Reality
First, you have everything—all colors, outcomes, possibilities.
When you add a sentence, you box reality. You take a snippet out of it. From everything, it becomes a part of that everything.
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Some language tightens the box.
This is extremely dangerous. If I label you as 'useless,' you’ll act within that box. When you do something right, you’ll think you got lucky. When something goes wrong, you’ll think it was bound to happen.
Why? Because you’re thinking from the box labeled 'useless.' Everything you do stems from that label, so you bounce back and forth within that box.
Strangely enough, this is also how quantum mechanics works, but that’s a story for another time. You can't see you’re stuck in a box.
Here’s where it gets dangerous: if I label you with 'Autism,' and you agree because you exhibit those characteristics, you’ll view everything from that box. Feeling tired? It’s because of how you deal with sensory input. Doing great because you have a photographic memory? It's not you—it’s the autism. Extremely dangerous.
Smart people try to trap each other in boxes. If I box you in religion, you’ll think everything happens because of a greater power. That’s the trick. You’re not aware that you’re stuck in a box. Having success in life? Also because of a greater power. See how devilish this trick is? The same goes for Buddhism: if you want something, it’s your ego. Same concept, different box (probably the hardest one to spot). This is the real game people play on each other: some understand, some don’t.
You Are All Those Things
The danger of being stuck in one box is that you end up explaining everything from that perspective. If I think religion is correct, I interpret everything through that lens. Do good things happen? It must be due to a greater power. Do bad things happen? It must also be due to a greater power.
Similarly, science can make the same mistake. Are you in love? It’s due to oxytocin receptors. Did someone do something bad? It’s because of a brain disorder.
If you believe you are in the box labeled ‘worthless,’ you could move mountains and it would still not be enough. Everything you accomplish will be seen as just another example of you not being enough. And if you mess something up, it’s because you were useless anyway.
If you accept the label of the box, you have no chance to escape it. Therefore, I think we should get rid of labels that pigeonhole people. Autism, for example, is a spectrum. Everything is a spectrum. Thus, labels are not useful and can be extremely limiting. They are like stripping away a person's individuality and reducing them to a single aspect. It’s as if everything that person is becomes irrelevant, just a label.
In reality, you are all those things together—every side of you. An autistic person is not just an autistic person; they are someone who laughs in a specific way, enjoys a certain breakfast, likes certain countries, hates cars, loves cars, and adores their mother. That’s a unique person. It’s about how someone moves, talks, laughs, and frowns.
What's the biggest fear of a Tempelier? That heaven exists.
The most disgusting thing is being stuck in a box forever, even with the people you love.
It's a hygiene thing.
Imagine there's a heaven, and it's filled with virgins for you. You think a virgin is someone pure.
But what does "clean" really mean? A clean dinner table is one that's used every day and then cleaned. A dinner table that's never used just collects dust.
So, from a Tempelier's perspective, many religious concepts are impure—meaning, not hygienic. Heaven isn't hygienic, just like being a virgin isn't cleaner than not being one.
Now, be honest with yourself. You are not smart enough for this, right?
How to Access the Multiverse
Tempeliers
- Thoughts are physical matter, like a wooden dinner table.
So, if we all think about the same thing, we create a temporary reality next to our own physical world.
We create a wooden table next to the wooden table. - Everything is temporary. The seasons are what make things beautiful.
Jesus and Moses
- Some parts of your body feel like water. So, you can walk on water.
- Some parts of your body come in waves. If you find those waves, you’ll know how to do this.
Freethinker
- Thinking that feels like freerunning. Thinking like motion, like running, like no thinking. It’s hard on a technical level.
- You can think about anything you want. If you think about suicide all night, it doesn’t mean you are more likely to commit it. On the contrary.
- The more you think, the better you get at it. You can never think too much; there's no such thing as overthinking.
J’te aime
- My love. If you press the right buttons, the universe will compress and say, "I love you." You will never experience anything other than this.
- Kiss.
Paradise Levels
You are already in paradise. Pretend like you are already there, right now. You’ll get it.
I know exactly what consciousness is.
Consciousness is your body explaining to you how it works.
All religious stories are about this.
- Adam's apple (the thing in your throat) – story about Adam and Eve
- Jesus (there is something bigger than myself)
- Buddha (we are the energy behind the brain, a larger force)
After completing the hard levels, you can enter a world with all different energy forms. This is that world.
How to Access Paradise
Imagine paradise. There is a river flowing. It’s elfish. It’s completely safe.
Now, pretend that you are already there, right here, right now. Like you are in an elfish paradise right now, which is this world.
Now you understand the difference between paradise and paradise. Now you know what you have to do to make it to paradise, like two worlds merging together.
How to Access Parallel Universes
A thought is a physical thing, a small piece of electricity.
If multiple people think about the same thing (often religion), we create a temporary physical world within this physical world. Like a wooden closet. This is called the Tempeliers levels, the temps—a temporary world that dissolves when we stop thinking about it collectively.
Sometimes I read things about consciousness and thoughts. I can't believe how poorly people understand this topic.
Let's Start with the Basics
When you do things differently, you get different thoughts. So the thoughts you have, change over time. This doesn't mean that thoughts are meaningless.
Nowadays, my thoughts are longer, more stretched out, and more elegant than they used to be. When I was doing a lot of drugs, my thoughts were shorter and more explosive. They were also less elegant and more foolish.
Thoughts tell us a lot about the state of our lives. Thoughts are not meaningless, but not all thoughts carry the same weight.
When I was younger, I lived a very structured lifestyle. I always felt good, which was reflected in my thoughts, feelings, and inner world. I realized this danger: my thoughts are a reflection of myself. So, in a way, my thoughts were too stubborn and serious too.
So, I messed up everything you can imagine. I took less and less care of myself and spiraled into a depression, anxiety, and eventually, psychosis. I ended up getting locked up in a mental institution twice. Nothing helped.
A few years ago, when I was 33 (after losing everything again and moving back in with my mom), I decided that I couldn't go on like this.
Now, I have a serious job, make good money, and I am in the best shape of my life.
This is not a "look at me" text. The point is this: over time, you can change your whole life, and then your world changes completely too. I used to be always tired. I had to take naps in the afternoon. Now, I work out seven days a week.
Be Careful with Things That Sound Good but Are Actually Bad
The best example is Buddhism. Everything about Buddhism sounds good: be positive, look with compassion, thoughts are constantly changing.
But if you look a little deeper, you’ll understand why Buddha is often portrayed as the devil in disguise. Because what is Buddha really selling?
- Senses are inferior to ‘mental consciousness.’
- There is no "you" (though there is; it just becomes a game of definitions—your whole body is you).
- Everything you want is your ego (there’s no such thing as an ego).
The biggest mistake Buddha made was telling only half of the story (I don’t think this was on purpose). Saying that someone is not their thoughts is odd because you have many thoughts, and all those thoughts are a small part of you.
Also, you are always thinking, so it’s very convenient to sometimes use concepts like ‘ego’ when you don’t like certain thoughts or feelings.
The second major flaw is the ‘living in the moment’ narrative. You always live in the here and now. Of all the things you can escape, you can never escape the here and now. What you mean is more like ‘I shouldn’t think about the past too much,’ which is ridiculous. If you really lived only in the here and now, without the past, you wouldn’t know how to walk back to your apartment because you wouldn’t remember where it is. So, you always need information from the past to move forward.
By the way: the smart people already know exactly what consciousness is.