"Even lekker verdrietig zijn. Dat lucht op."
"Allow yourself to be sad for a moment. It’s relieving."
Self-Awareness
I can still remember it well: the moment I first became self-aware. I was just a little person. Someone said something, and suddenly, I became aware of my own body. This is what the story of the serpent is about.
Now, I find self-awareness wonderful.
The Problem with Numbers
There is a room, and you don’t know what’s in there.
Somebody else goes looking, comes back, and says: "There are two people in the room."
You say: "What an unbelievably impolite thing to say. From all the information you could extract, you come back with the quantity—an imaginary thing (numbers)."
You could have asked anything, or you could have observed in awe. But you come back with a number: two.
"There are no two identical people. What do you know about that one person and the other person? Do they need anything? Where do they come from?"
Bad memories need to be discharged. Let them come and let them release.
There is tension between you and the memory.
The Adam's apple reference is about the taste in your mouth. When you are sick, the taste in your mouth changes. This is called taking a bite of the forbidden fruit. Well, that’s not all the forbidden fruit there is, but that’s more for the adult section.
Did you know that not every thought tastes the same?
How have you organized your brain?
I try to replace all my thoughts with empty spaces every evening. Then, I start the next day ‘reborn’. I find that a nice state.
How do you do it? You can unload per thought.
You can use your thoughts until they’re gone. Then you do something else for a while, and you’ll get new ones.
Why I do it this way: it means you always have something interesting to think about.
Hoe hebben jullie je brein ingericht?
Ik probeer elke avond al mijn gedachten weer te vervangen voor lege plekken. Dan begin ik de volgende dag ‘herboren’. Dat vind ik een fijne staat.
Hoe doen jullie dat? Je kunt ontladen per gedachte.
Je kunt je gedachten gebruiken totdat ze op zijn. Dan ga je weer even wat anders doen, en dan krijg je nieuwe.
Waarom ik het op deze manier doe: je hebt dan altijd iets interessants om over na te denken.
Why You Can't Use Probability to Explain How the Universe Works
You spin a roulette wheel.
The outcome is black or red.
But these are not the only possibilities. For instance, the Earth could fall—introducing a third option.
It’s not a simple 50/50 chance.
You can’t calculate probabilities like this. No matter how many boxes you create, you're still placing a box within a box. It doesn’t work.
However, if you reverse the perspective, it does work.
New possibilities emerge—like a flower blooming.
Life, at its most fundamental level, is like a flower, not a rigid box of randomness.
In fact, probability and calculation are like a grammatical mistake in language. It's similar to saying "white snow"—technically correct but unnecessary. Probability confirms itself: it is "true" only because it defines itself as true.
You never truly know if something is 50/50. There’s only a chance that it is 50/50, which is itself an illusion—a self-referential error, like a grammatical slip. A 50/50 of a 50/50, layered upon itself.
If you visualize this, it resembles a flower. But this flower doesn’t spread outward—it grows upward, branching into new possibilities.
Let's say you are scared but still go to a birthday – all new possibilities open up, like a flower. When you don’t go, you know a few outcomes, and you are probably correct.
But you can’t know all the new ones that open when you just go.
Like how a flower opens.
Outcomes that didn’t exist before that.
Why Probability Kind of Works in Boxed Settings
You can still use probabilistic thinking in strange settings. Like at a casino, in a red/black scenario.
Why? Because a casino has very little to do with reality. It’s in reality, but it’s not at the same level as a woman making a house a home. The latter actually has to do with reality and is beautiful. Most casino floors are like a surreal version of reality.
Therefore, basic 50/50 rules work, but they don’t work in more elegant scenarios.